A Wilhelm Scream Follow

Staring down deep in silence (???)
Stepdad was a drunk and every week there was a battle.
Rubbing elbows with the morning cattle(?) sacrifices
(???) evening with the demons and all their surprises.

I couldn't ask them to leave
I just invited them in.
I can't believe what I just did.
Shoved my face inside my pillow
Said Hail Mary's 'til I turned purple.

It won't break me down.
Won't leave me paralyzed.
I will spit fire.
On the pyres of the guilty
That relate but see right through me
I will spit fire.

I guess you didn't get the note on the nightstand.
Forgot to read it
About setting the house on fire.
Somehow a witness to my (???) pissed on the evidence.
Now everybody wants to know where the dog's hiding.
One day I'll cash your death check.
Buy the greatest and the respectable.
That thought had crossed my mind.
Oh yes, that thought had crossed my mind.

I'll take my chances.
Walking on the wire.
Not smart enough
To keep my feet out of the fire.
Where the fear and the pain are buried alive.
This beast inside metastasizes.
Crawling deeper, cut wide open
Viciously and without warning.

It won't break me down.
It won't leave me paralyzed.
I will spit fire.
On the pyres of the guilty
That relate but see right through me
I will spit fire.

When I've given up all I've got.
When my guts are tired in knots.

It won't break me down.
It won't leave me paralyzed.
I will spit fire.
[x2]

One day I will cash your death check.
Make believers of the impossible.
And I might drop my excesses
The meanest and the unlikeable.
But you won't break me down.
You won't put out the fires.
That I spit out.