Mary Gauthier Follow

Hello this is Mary, oh yeah, march 11, 1962
It took me 500 dollars and 40 years to find you
I know it's almost Christmas, I don't mean to make you cry
Now you ask me why I called,
I don't know why

Hello, hello, say something
don't leave me hanging here like this
If there's something right to say right now
I don't know what it is
This is the hardest thing I've ever done and I'm terrified

Now you ask me why I'm calling
I don't know why

You said I'm a secret and
nobody knows and
you can't talk about it and
you really got to go
you wish you'd done it different then but
you did not know how
and it's too late to change any of it now

I must have thought about this moment about a hundred thousand times
but I never could get past how long or imagine what I'd find
I guess somewhere deep inside of me I knew I was a lie
don't ask me why I'm calling
I don't know why!

You said that you love me but
I'm a secret you can't tell and
the hole you hide is wider than the weighted gate to hell
You wish you'd done it different then but
you did not know how and
It's too late to change any of it now

Look I know we're strangers but
we might just hurt the same
I'm not looking for 'I'm sorry'
I'm not looking to lay blame

I guess I had to thank you once
before this life went by
yeah that's why I called,

'Goodbye'